Wednesday, March 4, 2009

I need to get a life!

Warning this is a really long complaining post!!!!

So I am currently having a little pity party or dose of reality not sure which one. Or, maybe I am just simply avoiding the things I need to do but don't want to? Or, maybe I just feel like getting out what is in my head so I can go do the things I want to do with a clear mind?

Anyway, I am sitting on the floor in my living room where the sun is shining through the patio doors onto my back and the wall heater is going on and off to keep it warm in this, what would be, a freezing cold room if it wasn't on, despite the sunshine. Wow, that was a run on, oh well! I am trying to figure out what it is that all the "other moms" do to keep them busy? I am soooo bored about 50% of the day wondering what in the world I could do besides clean, clean and do some more cleaning. I could have the house all clean in the morning and then by the time Zach gets home the house is TRASHED! Is that all people do is clean?

I am a people person. I would be fine having someone live in my house with me just so there would be someone to talk to and interact with all day besides my kids. I don't mind cleaning if there is someone to talk to, in person or on the phone, but without the interaction it is boring!! (I sound like a complaining teenager, don't I)? I hate going places alone with just the kids and I. Not because they are bad in public but simply because there is no one to have a conversation with. Don't get me wrong I love to interact with my kids but I need more then that. To me, taking Zander to preschool, having a doctors appointment, or going to the gym in the morning does not constitute a busy day. That takes about 1-2 hours, max, of the entire 11 hours I need to fill. So, lets say feeding the kids takes about 1.5hr a day, getting everyone ready another 1hr (what is the point if we don't see another human being all day?) picking up the house, the max I can stand is about 2hrs a day. So I am now up to about 5.5hrs filled. What the heck do other moms do for the remaining 5.5hrs?

I am totally in denial...I could literally spend all day cleaning, organizing, doing laundry, cooking, and playing with the kids and then wake up the next day and start all over but I just can't! I would REALLY GO CRAZY not just sort of go CRAZY. I miss the good ole days when the Skidmore's lived here and we would all get together on a regular basis, we would do things together during the day, it didn't have to be planned weeks ahead of time, there was rarely the lame excuses like, "I have laundry to do" or "I need to do dishes"...who doesn't have those things to do all day everyday?

I guess part of the reality is every one has kids now and more of them, and then there are schedules, and preschool and all the junk. I know it is bad when the only thing I have to be excited about is my OB appointments (heck even a pelvic exam doesn't sound that bad...it would get me out of the house for about 20 minutes longer!). Oh and one more thing, sewing group, that happens once a month where I get to go hang out with the "old ladies"! I wish sewing group was once a week or, heck, I would be up for every other night!

I guess if money wasn't a factor I could think of tons of things to do like run errands, go to the mall, go to Stone Fire Pizza, the bounce house places, but in my reality spending 20 bucks to do those things is not realistic so I stay home and pick my nose.

I can't wait until July when Zach will finally be done with his MBA! He has five more weeks of actual class and then the rest of the time his work is all online. Which means no more going to class every Tuesday night, which means no more Monday night papers to write and presentations to prepare, which mean no more Wednesday nights getting caught up on actual work work. Which means no more first half of the week being lonely all day and all night for me!!!This probably has to do with why I am writing this post because it is Wednesday and I have been lonely since Sunday night.

Well now that I have complained about just about everything, I think I will go feed myself and the little girl that is swimming in my belly some lunch!

PS I need to get a life!!!

PSS Should I really push the publish post button? Probably not but oh well!

PSSS I really hate having sick kids all the time which isolates me even more from the world!

7 comments:

Aubrey Leong said...

I'm telling you...all your problems would be solved if we just lived near each other! I'll call you in a few.

Holli said...
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Holli said...

Hey there i wish i lived closer to you then i would come visit all the time :) And after i red this i saw that you are having a girl thats what i voted for I'm so happy for you thats really exciting!!!! :) Love ya :)

Abby said...

I hear ya. I used to feel like that ALL the time but once we moved we found lots and lots of young people to hang out with. I mean I still get bored but it has helped.

I don't know how you do it though in the snow one day in the rain and I feel like I may die.

kelly said...

You should start a weekly moms group! Kids can play, moms can talk...eat some horrible-for-you dessert...

AnnaMarie said...

Hello, Darcy. Quit complaining and call someone! I haven't heard from you in a long time. I don't always want to go sit at your house instead of mine, but I'd love a walk around the mall day or you could come to my house. Make plans! I'm definitely not busy all day long. I clean a lot (with the house showing and all, not that it has been shown yet) and I blog and I look online, and I scrapbook and I grocery shop. Some days it doesn't fill my days, and some days it does. When it doesn't, I call someone or go somewhere just to get out of the house. I expect a call today!

emily j said...

You'd probably feel better if you had gone to playgroup on Monday....I'm just kidding, I know you had sick kids. We should arrange a few playdates w/Connor and Zander sometime, especially since I can't make playgroup most of the time. Maybe we can help eachother be less lonely since our husbands are so busy with school :)